Giving Up soon......
I am back here updating again…well I guess this blog is for me to vent all my emotion…I will only update whenever I can’t find any one to talk to ba… reason I am blogging at this hour is because there is this unknown feeling deep in me that is making me very uncomfortable and I don’t like that feeling. I don’t know how to describe about this feeling that I am having, all I know that this feeling is making me wanting to quit all that I am doing and just do nothing, That include BB as well. I really don’t know what have get into me but I am just not behaving right. I really want to find someone to share with but who is there that I can turn to? There is on one out there that I really can share without being fearless and can break down or even to get comfort from. Some who read this might think that all this is what you ask for what. But the true fact is that, how many can of us out there can get comfortable showing there weakest part of themselves to others? That is why a lot of us will appear the totally different self in front of other people. Sometime I don’t call this acting but I will call is self defensive system. Is a system that is in build in all of us that it will auto trigger by itself and causing us to behave differently. For example, a guy can be very boastful and talkative in of his friends, but naturally he will behave differently when he is someone who is very close to him. Why is that so?
Seriously, I am thinking of taking along break from all that I am doing and want to be alone. How I wish now I am all alone on a peaceful island, with crystal white sand and sparkling clear water. May be that is an indication that I really need a break. Really tired……
John have leave his thought @ 1:16 AM
