tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55391754419118600762011-04-22T01:50:57.331+08:00Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comBlogger241100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-52742575430613869782008-06-26T22:30:00.000+08:002008-06-26T22:31:41.607+08:00It was very long ago since I’ve blog…coz during this period I have lots of thoughts and wasn’t free to blog. Since today I am free I will blog all that I can remember and comment all I want… hmmm…this week school have just started and things have not been on the right track… what do I mean by that…well…today is the fourth day of school and I am still having holiday mood. That is not very good…hate what I am doing, I am just like a car going a very fast speed and suddenly stall and can’t get the engine started…hope by end of the week I can fire up this old engine of my. Oh… I have get back all my common test results…I believe it is GOD’s blessing…and I really want to thank those who have pray for my exam and those have encourage me during the exam period… thank you people… I have score A’s for all four subject. One of the subjects is A-distinction. I am happy with the result…but In order to maintain this result I think I need a lot effort…so I need to fire up my rusty engine fast…haha….<br /><br />Hmmm…I also just came back from a family trip to Malaysia, Genting. Well…what I can say about the entire trip was just fun only…haha…may be the reason is I did not really go there to enjoy…but to go there to rest…I play during the first day then sleep throughout the second day…den play a bit and walk about the entire place and then did a bit of planning during the trip too…of cause did try out the casino…haha…before singapore IR is ready…opss…no lar…just to go there see see look look… but the thing I experience is that…people going there to play really need a lot of discipline cause the human mentality is very easily loss its stand…cause if a person win in the start and starting to lose all his or her winning back it is very natural that they want to win everything back again…but most of the time loosing is the ending… take my self for an example…I won almost 100 RM in the start but after a while of playing I lost everything back…so I tried my luck again and that is the beginning sign and symptom of being hook to gambling and that was not my objective…haha…so I stop once I lost around 70 RM… then I just sit around the casino to accompany my mother to play…but I wasn’t not satisfied with the result so I did went in to play again…so in the end I lost a total of 130 RM to that place…but I learnt that self control and discipline is very important if we are going to such places…going there to have fun is ok but don’t throw in all you have…cause the consequence can be very hard to face… btw I came back to Singapore on my own cause I need to conduct the sec 1 first aid camp…all I can remember for the trip was I have very nice rest…haha coz for that 7hrs of journey I sleep throughout… and ya…Singaporean PLS don’t try our Singapore government system…coz there is something happen at the Singapore custom where there is a group of young youth being stop and fine for bringing contraband to Singapore. The whole process of fine took very long and coz my coach to stuck at the custom for 1hrs just to wait for them to pay the fine. Ok enough about that… let’s talk about the camp I just had…we call it the JAC or June adventure camp.<br /><br />This camp is a camp where there is 2 different running at the same time. One of it is adventure camp and the other is my first aid camp. Hmmm…if you ask me to rate for my camp I will say it should be around 6 to 7 point standard…coz I believe that my Boys have learnt quite a lot…and all this I have to thank Yvonne, my sister and her friend Cheryl. If not my camp wont be that fun liao… <br /><br />Ok Lar…enough of the blogging liao… got to go sleep …<br />Anyway I am still feeling lost and sad…I can’t bluff myself any longer…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-5274257543061386978?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-35679394582870672232008-05-29T01:16:00.000+08:002008-05-29T01:17:25.296+08:00I am back here updating again…well I guess this blog is for me to vent all my emotion…I will only update whenever I can’t find any one to talk to ba… reason I am blogging at this hour is because there is this unknown feeling deep in me that is making me very uncomfortable and I don’t like that feeling. I don’t know how to describe about this feeling that I am having, all I know that this feeling is making me wanting to quit all that I am doing and just do nothing, That include BB as well. I really don’t know what have get into me but I am just not behaving right. I really want to find someone to share with but who is there that I can turn to? There is on one out there that I really can share without being fearless and can break down or even to get comfort from. Some who read this might think that all this is what you ask for what. But the true fact is that, how many can of us out there can get comfortable showing there weakest part of themselves to others? That is why a lot of us will appear the totally different self in front of other people. Sometime I don’t call this acting but I will call is self defensive system. Is a system that is in build in all of us that it will auto trigger by itself and causing us to behave differently. For example, a guy can be very boastful and talkative in of his friends, but naturally he will behave differently when he is someone who is very close to him. Why is that so?<br /><br />Seriously, I am thinking of taking along break from all that I am doing and want to be alone. How I wish now I am all alone on a peaceful island, with crystal white sand and sparkling clear water. May be that is an indication that I really need a break. Really tired……<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-3567939458287067223?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-66266251698491916612008-04-28T21:08:00.001+08:002008-04-28T22:15:02.157+08:00I have just come back from an interesting week end…during the weekend I went to Malaysia for my BOTC Residential Weekend. There were a total of 46 participants for this camp. We really enjoy our self. The entire group felt very bless…it is because we were suppose to stay overnight at the campsite. As there is an over flooding of people in the camp and all the participants there were all Muslim and only our groups are Christian group. Base on RAMs and PEEP’s model…the best way to prevent risk from happening is to separate our self from them. So the camp committee decided to change another venue for our group to stay overnight. We went to a resort in kukup…to our surprise the living condition there were so much better than the camp sites…some more the all the rooms there were all equipped with air condition. Not only that…we also have a wonderful supper.<br />Just to share the whole trip experience with all…we gather at BBHQ at 0730hrs and we set off for Malaysia at 0815hrs…and reach the immigration gantry at about 0900hrs and stuck in a traffic jam till 1030hrs then we reach Singapore customs…then we change to a new bus at the Malaysia custom side…from Malaysia custom to the campsite we took another 30 min drive…so we reach the campsite at about 1120hrs…so at the campsite the first activities that we did was objective setting…and orientate our self at the camp site...then following by lunch, seriously the serving was very little and surprising most of us still said we were full…may be the food was really bad…then after lunch we bunk into the room given to us we proceed on to the activities…all the activities that we are doing are all wet activities…during one of the activities I was bitten by a LEECH !!! It wasn’t painful or anything…just that suddenly there is a mole like stuff stuck on my ankle… by the end of all the activities we change to our dry clothing…den we do our outdoor cooking…we were very lucky to have a mother in our group…so we basically have good home cook meal…then after the dinner is about 2000hrs…we pack our stuff then board the bus to change our sleeping journey…we reach our next destination at about 1000hrs…we resettle down in to 3 to 6 in a room…then we have a nice shower…after that we have our sumptuous supper all of us sit down for a 20min debrief for the day…the second day we woke up at 0640hrs then we travel 2hrs to travel back to the camp site for the water fall trekking…the trekking for me was super siong…but I did complete the trek…=D at the water fall…most of us enjoy our self at the waterfall…then have lunch at the foot of the hill…then after that we change and travel back to Singapore…we reach Singapore at about 1730hrs… then reach home bath and sleep till this morning 10am…<br />Now my whole body still aching…haha…<br />Write till here…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-6626625169849191661?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-58527514048171278532008-04-28T21:08:00.000+08:002008-04-28T22:14:58.826+08:00I have just come back from an interesting week end…during the weekend I went to Malaysia for my BOTC Residential Weekend. There were a total of 46 participants for this camp. We really enjoy our self. The entire group felt very bless…it is because we were suppose to stay overnight at the campsite. As there is an over flooding of people in the camp and all the participants there were all Muslim and only our groups are Christian group. Base on RAMs and PEEP’s model…the best way to prevent risk from happening is to separate our self from them. So the camp committee decided to change another venue for our group to stay overnight. We went to a resort in kukup…to our surprise the living condition there were so much better than the camp sites…some more the all the rooms there were all equipped with air condition. Not only that…we also have a wonderful supper.<br />Just to share the whole trip experience with all…we gather at BBHQ at 0730hrs and we set off for Malaysia at 0815hrs…and reach the immigration gantry at about 0900hrs and stuck in a traffic jam till 1030hrs then we reach Singapore customs…then we change to a new bus at the Malaysia custom side…from Malaysia custom to the campsite we took another 30 min drive…so we reach the campsite at about 1120hrs…so at the campsite the first activities that we did was objective setting…and orientate our self at the camp site...then following by lunch, seriously the serving was very little and surprising most of us still said we were full…may be the food was really bad…then after lunch we bunk into the room given to us we proceed on to the activities…all the activities that we are doing are all wet activities…during one of the activities I was bitten by a LEECH !!! It wasn’t painful or anything…just that suddenly there is a mole like stuff stuck on my ankle… by the end of all the activities we change to our dry clothing…den we do our outdoor cooking…we were very lucky to have a mother in our group…so we basically have good home cook meal…then after the dinner is about 2000hrs…we pack our stuff then board the bus to change our sleeping journey…we reach our next destination at about 1000hrs…we resettle down in to 3 to 6 in a room…then we have a nice shower…after that we have our sumptuous supper all of us sit down for a 20min debrief for the day…the second day we woke up at 0640hrs then we travel 2hrs to travel back to the camp site for the water fall trekking…the trekking for me was super siong…but I did complete the trek…=D at the water fall…most of us enjoy our self at the waterfall…then have lunch at the foot of the hill…then after that we change and travel back to Singapore…we reach Singapore at about 1730hrs… then reach home bath and sleep till this morning 10am…<br />Now my whole body still aching…haha…<br />Write till here…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-5852751404817127853?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-24562504373235870152008-04-22T22:50:00.001+08:002008-04-22T22:50:35.060+08:00Today was an extreme tired day…not only physically but mentally as well…last night was not able to sleep well…although I went to sleep consider early…I went to sleep like about 11pm soon I was dreaming…but I kept waking up throughout the night…keep waking up after each dream…cant really remember what was the content also… but it was really a bad experience… wake up like at 1am, 3.30am, 5am and 7am. Then I wake up at 9am to bath and prepare myself to go school…den reach school like 10.50am 10miniute before the 1st lesson starts…den this though came to my mind…is this course really what I want to do and can I excel a not…it is not really encouraging as today is the only 7th day in school…and there is like so many days, months and years ahead of me…then I told myself that since I wanted to get into this course then no matter how tiring is it or how tough is it I have to excel no matter what… what I think I can do is also pray hard enough that GOD will bring me through all the difficulties I am facing and hope that HE will hear my prayer…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-2456250437323587015?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-90357561963597555202008-04-21T20:49:00.000+08:002008-04-21T21:43:53.429+08:00Today is the 2nd week of my studies…still trying to get adjusted to the life of being a student…hmmm….today lesson was alright…all the IS module…today was also the first time typing a essay base on a topic…lucky was not ask to type 1000 words long kind…<br /><br />Suddenly feel that life in poly will be faster then life in NS…maybe is because in poly there is a study plan and we can see or gauge what will be coming up and get our self ready…and I also feel that time will fly pass even faster when we are looking at event that have short intervals…example if there is 10 week of study and there will be 5 class test…then by the time we sit for the 5th class test the whole semester will be over…<br /><br />Then in NS is different, we will not really know what will be ahead of us…just like a lot people say “army train people to wait and people always wait to be train.” So in short we guys in NS is always train to wait and wait to train…there for the more waiting time the slower time passes…haha…<br /><br />Any way I was thinking of a phrase that some one told me, ‘wounds from a friend are better than many kisses from an enemy’. Is this sentence really true? How many can really understand this sentence and response like this sentence? To be frank I cant, I don’t know how to react. I only know, I can’t accept this kind of feeling. So the only way I think suit me was to dig a deep hole and bury the pain and sorrow in that deep deep hole that I have dug. During the digging period is normally what I call the emo-ing period. Then the period I use to bury the problem is what I call the recovering period. Then after the whole process is done, normally I should be done too. Some after reading this will question me, why do you have to do this? Well…mostly I will reply that…Who will really understand your problems? The more you share the more you need to explain. The more you explain, the more you will think of the problem. The more you think of the problem the longer you will take to recover. Worst still if the person you trying to share your problem with cant understand you and start to rebuke at you. Then isn’t sharing with a person doesn’t help at all?<br /><br />Well, sharing with people do not really help all the time; keeping to yourself does not really solve the problem. But at least if it is a small problem there is not a need a long explanation.<br /><br />Well people can try to convince me to change my mindset but I will say this; no matter how you try I will try to understand and change if I feel there is a need.<br />But you don’t want me to care I can just simply don’t waste my brain cell on you. Coz I still got my own life to handle and my own problem to handle too...<br /><br />Guess that all I will say….<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-9035756196359755520?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-53384573571714007892008-04-20T20:59:00.000+08:002008-04-20T21:00:02.276+08:00Today was a extremely sian day…today I was suppose to do a couple of thing but end up doing nothing…today I was suppose to do things like revision, clean up my room and go to church… feeling so bad now… L<br /><br />Tml, is a brand new start of a week…i must start to tune myself back to be a student…do what student suppose to do…things like wake up on time for school, remember to do homework, remember to do research, time to play must play hard and time to study must study hard and smart last but not least must revise all the thing I have learnt again and again till I can never forget it…<br /><br />Well…I write till here…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-5338457357171400789?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-16326181825644495952008-04-19T12:55:00.002+08:002008-04-19T13:30:40.485+08:00I am back here again... reason I start writing on blog again is most probably I got no one to turn to ba...so pouring my emotion here might be a good solution...<br /><br />I had a bad start to my new chapter of my life...I should be feeling over the moon yesterday but sadly I wasn’t, if someone ask me what happen to me... I will sure take a super long time to think of an explanation to tell the person. Well...the fact that I have ORD should make me happy enough to wipe away all the unpleasant event...but seem like I am still affected... well...that’s life to me... enough of that...<br /><br />Well just to do some updating...hmmm....lets start from what I have been doing recently... I have gone back to be a student once again...haha...now I am a full time student of Ngee Ann Poly and i am studying Aerospace Electronic. if have been 3yrs since I last sit down and study...really worried now...but so far my school is still very normal...as in nothing much had happen...just to share my target and aim... I wish and I pray that I can score a perfect 4 of GPA for my dip... I know it is very tough but I believe that as long as that is my aim and I constantly pray about it I should be able to reach my target...nevertheless I have to put in more effort to study or revise all my work too...<br /><br />as for the Boys Brigade... I am still active...now going through the officer course call the BOTC...which also mean Basic Officer Training Course...and will be going over to Malaysia for a 2d1n camp...rather excited about it...it have been about 10 years since I was in BB... lately I have also been thinking...is it about time to take a break...take a break to seek what I need to seek, take a break to rest for the better? I really don’t know...<br /><br />now all I really know is that both my emotions and mentally I am tired...I have ever ask my self what I wan in life but I don’t really know...maybe I have a target I cant reach or maybe I didn’t really set a target at all...whatever my past is today will be a brand new beginning...a new chapter of my life...the following will be my target for this year...<br />Get a GPA 4.0 for the first semester of my studies.<br />Improve the relationship with GOD.<br />Must Up-Grade myself for the better.<br />This shell is my forces...<br />Hmmm...it is time to put my words into action...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-1632618182564449595?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-53383714913520577502007-12-23T10:07:00.000+08:002007-12-23T10:10:49.551+08:00"beep...beep...beep...beep..."<br />"beep...beep...beep...beep..."<br />"beep...beep...beep...beep..."<br />"beep...beep...beep...beep..."<br />"beep...beep...beep...beep..."<br />"beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....."<br /><br />this blog have been CERTIFIED dead...<br /><br />p.s. coz the heart to blog is no longer alive...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-5338371491352057750?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-52069961141912317162007-11-14T12:19:00.001+08:002007-11-14T12:19:33.001+08:00Sorry sorry…long time never blog…again…haha… well infect I kind of have forget about my blog… =X haha<br /><br />Hmmm…it has been 20 odd day since I up date…it have been kind of interesting weeks for me…<br /><br /> For example, one of the night danny, wei rong, qi cheng and I was going out for supper at LAU PA SAT. den I kind of witness a minor car accident… it was a Nissan clashing in to a Mercedes…but we did not stay to watch…so don’t really know wat have happen…<br /><br />Den we have also tried many other place that will have nice supper place…haha<br />So if any one who have any place to suggest can tag me or danny…hahha…<br />We also ok for u to join us as long as u are willing to pay for the fuel hahaha…coz fuel price increasing den it is rather “jia lat” or “xiong” to bare the cost alone…hahha….<br /><br />Haha…so that all for now…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-5206996114191231716?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-81053985911507983642007-10-26T01:14:00.000+08:002007-10-26T01:26:41.299+08:00Hey every one....it is my BIRTHDAY ~~!!! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">haha</span></span>...<br /><br />i would like to thank everyone who still remember my birthday...well <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">specifically i would like to THANK a few person...like <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Danny</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Wei</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">rong</span> and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">qi</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">cheng</span>...who ask mi out for supper and give mi a new watch...i like it <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">alot</span>... <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">XIE</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">XIE</span> ~~!!! den is my camp mate...because today is my Combat Shoot or we call it the CS...den i have to spent my day at the shooting range...out of <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">surprise</span> they actually ask our <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">warrant</span> officer to help them buy a cake to celebrate at the range itself...i was very touch....thanks too... lastly is the people who <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">SMSs</span> me to bless me...i would like to thank all of you too... and Last but not least is JESSICA...i <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">receive</span> the mail that you sent out...i was shock to see that in my mail box that day...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">coz</span> you <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">noe</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">lar</span>...need not explain too much...=X but you are sure the first one who make my year a happy one...=D thanks gal... well it will be a better year ahead for me ...i am sure ! that all for now... !!!</span><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected"></span><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected">cheers to all ^.^v</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-8105398591150798364?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-47066154873658741692007-10-19T23:07:00.000+08:002007-10-19T23:13:50.852+08:00YES ~~~!!! once again i have finish the last duty of the month ~!~! haha...no more duty for the rest of this month liao...today was a wonderful day...i have a nice sleep after duty as i was just to tired to stay awake...den after that took a half day off... soon after i reach home my mom ask me to drive her to a chinese medication shop to purchase some chinese medication for my father...den sleep for few hours den meet wei rong, qi cheng, melvin, ALF and sammual for dinner...at "BOTAK JONES" again...haha...den will be going out for supper soon after this blog... =P.... going to serangoon garden CHOMP CHOMP... well i will stop here liao...will update soon....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-4706615487365874169?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-27225425731460547162007-10-16T23:48:00.000+08:002007-10-17T00:22:23.986+08:00Hmmm…so long never blog liao…I think I should update myself to every body… =D<br /><br />First on the list I should update Is…I have finally PASS my driving test liao…MUHAHAHa…well I have been waiting for this license for the past 3 years…long rite…but no choice lar…no time no money…well at least I got it…and I have pass for 1 month liao…<br /><br />Next is that I have been driving my dad’s lorry…it is very different from driving car…because of the view you get to see is higher and less restricted …haha…although I have been driving the vehicle for almost every Saturday and Sunday I still can control it very well…I will still face problem almost every time I drive it…like cant stop on time before the “hump” or unable to cut / change lane smoothly and have to E-brake due to sudden pop out of motorbike…this are some thing that have been causing fear for me…fear of driving…well...just hope I can over come it…<br /><br />Next is also something related to my driving license too…which it…since I get to drive almost every weekend…that is also mean I have been going out almost every weekend mid-night to hunt for late night supper…danny and I have been going to places like Newton circle , chomp chomp – at serangoon garden and even town...<br /><br />Hmmm…that all I can talk about me and my driving license…hahahaha….<br /><br />HAI…I going to get older soon…like in another 8days time…it should be a time where I am suppose to be happy…but for the past many years I have not been happy…like last year...my wish was to pass it with some one that I like and have a full day of fun…I really though that I can fulfill that wish…but in the end I pass that day with ME, MYSELF and I…haiz…as my birthday draw nearer I could suddenly feel the pain and tear from last year…how ? and anyone tell me what to do ? well…I guess…that the old Chinese saying “the great you hope, the greater is your disappointment.” Is very true afterall…there is nothing I wan to hope for this year…because I just wan to be plain happy at least… :’ …I want to tears no more for my birthday this year ! AMAN !!!!<br /><br />No mood to type liao…I guess I stop here for the time being… x&shy;&shy;&shy;__x<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-2722542573146054716?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-6746234625802493012007-09-16T03:04:00.000+08:002007-09-16T03:25:35.157+08:00This few weeks was a rather hard week for me...i wasn’t on the right mind if u ask me wat happen...i have been hot temped…I can blow off my top for simple stuff…I really don’t wan that to happen…but I just don’t know why it happen… so lately the way I control my temper was to ignore people toking to me…some may feel it is rude…but to me I think it is the best way…because by toking less…the less u will hurt other by using your words…but now I am better…<br /><br />Yesterday Wei Rong and Qi cheng ask me to go over to danny place to stay over…I wanted to but I was just too lazy to go over because a few reason…1) I needed a good rest…because I just came back from Duty..2) I know I wont be able to rest well…and if I don’t rest well I will be in a foul mood…=X 3)too lazy… haha…<br /><br />Den today went to parade at about 9am…den I was still feeling sick…but I was still there for parade…haha..den conducted the first aid class on behalf of Eugene…I know if he is there he will sure not please with the way it was done…but wat I want was for the boys to remember…if they cant at least there is still some thing for them to refer too… well.. enough of that…after the first aid lesson…WR, QC and I was just enjoying ourselves at the parade square by kicking soccer ball…den after the whole parade…I conducted the very 1st logistic meeting in the company…haha…den went home after that…den meet danny for dinner at around 2030hrs…but before we eat…we have some SOP that we always do…which is play Arcade – ghost squard…den went to MAC to have ice cream…den went to sembawang for some prates…den we go to Sun plaza to watch movie – I pronounce you chuck and Larry (a M18 show) it was a nice show…we laugh for almost 1 hour plus…It is a show I would recommend you to watch if you are 18 and above…den after the movie…we went to MAC (again) to chill out…den reach home at 0300hrs…well…that the whole day to me….hmmmm….donno wat is going to happen tml….just wondering and pondering…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-674623462580249301?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-85015271872874252922007-09-03T16:04:00.000+08:002007-09-03T16:12:50.096+08:00Today was a very relax day for me…because I am on leave…hmmm…today was the 6 day I did not went back to camp…feeling was like I am out of army liao…haha…<br /><br />Hmm…now my leg are having sun burn…have the burning sensation…all because I did not protect my legs when I am kayaking last Saturday…den my face is even darker…lol…luckily I wore long sleeve shirt for kayaking or else I will be peeling all over…haha… hmmm…yesterday went to church early in the morning then went to Bedok for lunch…after that went to amk hub to have deserts and play arcade…after that went back home…haha cant wait for PAY day…den can catch a few movie… =P.. up date when I am free…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-8501527187287425292?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-11163663024721629612007-08-31T17:28:00.000+08:002007-08-31T17:33:05.886+08:00yozz...I finally pass my Driving Test...I now can officially drive a class 3 vehicle liao…haha… but I really have to thanks all who have pray for me… and I would like to Thank God for letting me pass my test…now what I need is a chance to Drive… ^.^~! Haha…can’t wait for that time to come… once again thank you guys who have been praying for me.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-1116366302472162961?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-6473288860443925552007-08-27T21:03:00.000+08:002007-08-27T21:04:14.518+08:00Today was a rather interesting day for me…because today was my first time being a COS in army…haha…feel very different from BB…erm…the authority given to us are much more and the people you handle are different…but doing COS in army or in BB is same when instruction pass down from the top management we as COS have to think and come out with a solution to the task we are ask to do…and in army COS is like a “waiter”… why do I say so ? it is because…my unit or camp does not have canteen or something like that to sell us food…the only place we can get food other then the cook house food is either we call for food delivery or go to the Air base canteen to buy…because COS need to be vehicle commander when ever the vehicle move about so we have the opportunity to go to the canteen…so we some time have to collect order, purchase the food, collect the money and serve them the food…haha…doesn’t it sound like a waiter ma ?haha…but COS can have it own fun as well as it trouble…like will kanna scolding from the peers or upper management…because if we force our peer to do something that they don’t wan to do then they will say… “wah lao…why you keep on ask me to do ? There is so many people around cant ask them to do meh?” or “NOT FREE LAR” or even “wait ar I have to make a phone call…later I come back find you.” Then if the thing is not done the upper management will start to ask the COS “What are you doing? Why the thing I ask you to do is not yet done?” or “don’t give me any more excuse I wan to see it done when I come back.” Aiyo…what or how should we as COS do? Haha… but I really got to thank BB for training me well as a COS…coz I now can know how to “pull” rank if I have to and when to ask people to help… =D haha…hmmm…overall I still enjoy doing COS…haha….<br /><br />update when ever i can...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-647328886044392555?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-11877785130538234032007-08-24T17:51:00.000+08:002007-08-24T17:54:14.672+08:00TODAY WAS A FREAKING BAD DAY FOR ME...WILL POST MORE LATER TONIGHT...NEED TO COOL DOWN FIRST.....<br /><br />BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...BAD MOOD...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-1187778513053823403?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-41325937018059303462007-08-20T22:28:00.000+08:002007-08-20T22:29:12.271+08:00Wow…3 day never blog le… =P hmmm…after that day of MC (160807) I have Duty on the following day (1700807), I was feeling kind of tired and a bit weak that evening…but never the less I don’t want to activate any one to cover up my duty…coz I know how it feels to be the one covering up other people duty… then on Saturday morning after I send in my arms (weapon = M16…what I use during duty)…I rush down to Christ Church Sec for Boys’ Brigade. I reach there about 9.30am…den I over see some Drill conducted by my Primers…well toking about primers…I really want to thank God for letting me know them they are a group of good helpers…back to my stories…haha…but soon I had to leave for my driving lesson at abt 1.30pm…after driving lesson I went back home and have a nice bath…after that I have a few game of ‘General’ with Danny…den fall asleep while my sister need to use the computer…Den on Sunday…early in the morning I receive morning call from Danny to meet him for Church Service…so meet him at abt 8.30am…well I really enjoy myself at the service…the speaker was REALLY REALLY REALLY GREAT…learnt quite number of things from the topic…den we have lunch with Danny Cell group…after that the both of us went around enjoying our Sunday…like “window shopping”…eating ice-cream ( both the cheap and not very expensive kind)…play arcade…chit chatting…and play on-line game…hahaha…..what a wonderful weekend for me…<br /><br />Back to today …hmmm…today was not that bad…don’t have the Monday blue that I have last week =X…haha…well…basically…I just wake up…bath…change…go to camp…area cleaning…take breakfast…meeting…area cleaning again…work…lunch…slack…and ‘fall out’( which also mean GO HOME ~~~!! Haha) den bath…watch TV…relax a bit …do some Blogging and going to sleep soon…coz tml I still have healthy lifestyle and I need to reach camp very very early…SIAN~! Haiz…I think I better go sleep liao…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-4132593701805930346?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-65261772583854150032007-08-16T22:15:00.001+08:002007-08-16T22:15:21.207+08:00Today was a sick day for me…went to polyclinic to see a doctor…den went back home to sleep…it was abt 10.30am…den sleep till now…just wake up at 10 pm…yawns…going back to rest after this up date…so sian tml still have to perform duty…sad…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-6526177258385415003?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-14563902025268444572007-08-15T22:58:00.000+08:002007-08-15T23:16:12.715+08:00Today at camp was not like yesterday…today had breakfast in camp den went for my usual meeting den went to my storehouse to do area cleaning…from abt 0930 hrs to abt 1330 hrs…after that have my lunch…den I over heard from my commander that they need someone to go out of camp to collect some thing…so I volunteer myself…=P<br /><br />First I went to a camp some where near SAFTI…to collect some stuff…den from there we went down to sembawang to collect some 2nd hand furniture from one of my campmate place…den back to my camp…the whole journey starts at abt…1415hrs and ended at abt 1725hrs… so shoik …haha slack through out the journey… i also chat a lot with the driver uncle…he told me this which I think it is rather interesting…”in army you need to know how to ‘siam’, ‘act blur’, ‘take cover’ and ‘cover your own backside’…” haha… in my mind was this are stuff a lot people know by instinct and have been practicing them…LOL …<br /><br />Then today there is something happen in camp which cause all of us last fall out and stay till 6.20pm den can go home…so sian lor…coz reach home abt 7.30pm so tired lor…almost stop at the wrong stop…well…what to do…in NS is like that de..nth much we can change…YAWNS…tml still have a long day…I shell stop here….<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-1456390202526844457?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-11702925227382766122007-08-14T22:11:00.001+08:002007-08-14T22:11:36.965+08:00Today was quite a tiring day…most of the credit is due to I did not have enough sleep last night as I could not sleep until like 4.30am and have to wake up at 6.15am…yawns…<br /><br />Last night or some would prefer this morning…I was roaming on the net as I could not sleep…then I saw an old friend on line…den we chat for a while den she recommend me to watch some TV series on line…so I just try it out…haha…den I watch till 4.30am…haha<br /><br />Then today morning I have health lifestyle in camp…what was require out of me is that we just have to run or walk a distance of about 2.4km…den after that was the usual meeting detailing and den off to work…today I start at about 10am and all the way to 2pm…after that all of us stop what we are doing and have our lunch…what happen after that was simply great…the weather turn bad and the rain have lasted from 2.30pm all the way to 5pm… =D so we slack around and have a time of our own… den we book out of camp at 5.30pm… lol…that is also the end of my working day..muhaha…<br /><br />TML shell be the same again… =D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-1170292522738276612?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-4234412371852973992007-08-13T22:04:00.000+08:002007-08-13T22:39:39.244+08:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Today I did not have any intention to take off or what-so-ever from work but the mood of working is just not there…then some more my superior ask the whole lot of us who is interested to clear our OFF or LEAVE…at that moment I am struggling to ask myself to work...after the meeting I still cant convince myself to stay and work for the day… so I decided just before lunch that I want to take half a day of OFF…and after lunch off I go…haha<br /><br />Hmmm....when I came back home...initially thought of doing some clean up of my room…but end up cleaning in my dream…haha… well…is this what it mean by Monday blue ? Haiz …may be I have just use to the life I had during the long week end ba…or my ORD mood have come liao…=S<br /><br />Today I had also been thinking what should I do after NS…study? Work? Slack? Or what? I really don’t know what really I want now…but if I am going study right what am I going to study? Aiyo…life is always so much of choice and decision making…so tired of it…but what ever the case is I think I will still go for study ba…but any one who read this can give me suggestion ?<br /><br />Well I think that all I will be “Rubbish” for now…tml still need to wake up early for Healthy Lifestyle…Sadden =(</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-423441237185297399?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5539175441911860076.post-32379609794841394062007-08-12T18:33:00.001+08:002007-08-12T18:33:12.514+08:00Hmmm....after soooooooo~~~~~~~oo long...I finally feel like Blogging again... =X …haha... but I can’t remember my old account so I might as will just create a new one. but who knows...I keep on facing trouble creating a Blog template...well I of course I did not give up without trying...I try to figure out what is wrong with the Blog scrip but I can't...so I "KIV" the whole Blog thingy. =P<br /><br />but last night(110807) my best friend MR DANNY POH help me to solve a mystery that I cant solve... -.-...or else I will still be searching thought the whole website and still cant solve the problem... THANKS BROTHER ~~!!<br /><br />Today was 120807…the first Sunday after NDP…should be happier cause it is one of the “Check point” toward my ORD… but now I don’t fell as happy as I should be…because after NDP I will have more to do in camp…=( …haiz … but what to do I am serving my National Service…so in other words I die die also got to ‘tar-han’ for another 8 month plus. Hmm…the next check point toward my ORD date shall be my Birthday… 25 October this year. From now to my birthday is exactly 2 month 13 days… will wait for that day to come….<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5539175441911860076-3237960979484139406?l=brotherbear1985.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Brotherbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03878164060489080157noreply@blogger.com